Rhythm Of My Soul -Forewords

"You are the rhythm of my soul"

I can still remember those words clearly as if I had only heard it just a few minutes ago. His deep, muscular but yet gentle voice as he whispered into my ears. Before I could ask him what he meant by that, he started nibbling my ears playfully and that made me laugh so much that I nearly tumbled out of bed. I was so happy and evrything was just perfect.

That memory made me smile but that smile vanished almost instantly when I thought about what had happened next. Within a second, everything was taken away from me. From a girl who has everything, I became a girl who has lost everything. Shawn was gone and there was nothing I could do to bring him back. In losing him, I have lost myself. I was just never the same person again.

I never allowed myself to be happy since that fateful day. Unknowingly, I silently tortured and punished myself for what had happened to him. It was my fault. I had let happen even though I already knew what the ending would be. He assured me otherwise and I actually believed him. I thought that it would be different this time but again, I was wrong. Because of that, I've lost him forever.

I began building a wall so high and thick to make sure that no one else ever comes this close to me again. I am determined to live this lifetime on my own. I have always been alone, I was meant to be alone. The reason? It was simple. I would rather not have any loved ones than to have them and then lose them. Enough is enough.

This time, I would not make the same mistake again.

My name is Chelsea

And I believe that I am cursed.

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Rhythm Of My Soul....

What exactly is the rhythm of my soul?

Is it the soft gentle music that your neighbour played on the piano everyday?

Is it the loud heavy metal music that is popular among the teenagers nowadays?

Is it the humming of the birds that can be heard early every morning?

Is it the sound of the waves that splashes on the beach?

Is it the sound of laughter that we shared with our loved ones?

I never had the chance to find out.